Friday, November 30, 2007

Untitled

We both love jazz and blues.

Norah Jones's Don't Know Why.

And The Carpenters.

And Hong Kong drama.

And badminton.

And share the same kind of weird melancholy in us.

Lol.

How good to have you around. :)

十二月

今天是十一月的最后一天。明天就迎来今年的最后一个月了。是自我省察及计划明年的时候了。

《溏心风暴》里的大契常说,万物皆有时:哭有时,笑有时;悲伤有时,快乐有时。

哭过了就该笑,因为悲伤的日子已属过去。跌倒了就要站起来,因为唯有重新的站立,才不白费了那一次跌倒的痛。

十二月,我昂首大步向前走。走出过去的沮丧,也走向前方的阳光。

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Enchanted by "Enchanted"

Went to Star to catch the premiere of "Enchanted" with Eric Sharon Maria Whye Chung a couple of days ago.

Just one comment: Beautiful.

The entire story is simply beautiful. So simple, yet so beautifully written.

The movie tells about a princess, Giselle living in Andalasia who met the love of his life, Prince Edward. Nevertheless the reigning queen of Andalasia who happens to be Edward's mother, was worried that Giselle may overthrow her throne and thus, pushed Giselle into a cursed valley which ultimately brings Giselle from the cartoon world into real life in New York.

In New York Giselle met the kind hearted yet dejected Robert. Giselle eventually finds that her true love is actually Robert instead of Edward, and decided to stay with him in New York city.

At the end of the story, the villainous queen died on an attempt to kill Giselle as a result of her greed, while Giselle and Robert lives happily ever after.

I walked out of the cineplex hall, satisfied. Somehow the 9 bucks for the premiere was worth it.

As we were waiting for the lift, Maria complained that she was expecting a twist towards the end of the movie, yet there wasn't any.

Well for me, it's just beautiful the way it is.

The ending is beautiful, the singing and dancing is beautifully planned, Robert's daughter, Morgan is so chubby and cute, and most of all, Giselle portrayed by Amy Adams is a scorching hot gorgeous lady!

And I just love her thinking of how simple love can be, how powerful true-love's-kiss could be, stuff like that.

Love is actually very simple, isn't it?

**Catch "Enchanted" at your local cinemas. Rotten Tomatoes gave 93% positive. I give 100%.**

Sunday, November 25, 2007

用心去体会

很多时候我们会发现到人生的路上,或在每一天的生活里,有许许多多的事让我们失望,让我们感到人间不再有温情,不再美好。

今天的我,驾着车子在古晋的市区里穿梭。车驶过一件小学,一群小学生们正在为下课而雀跃的涌出学校。其中一位大约三年级的小朋友,正牵着他妈妈的手,笑脸盈盈的走出校门。

多温馨的一幕啊。

在他那稚气的脸蛋儿,我看见了生命的美好,在他母亲幸福的笑容里,我察觉了人间的温情。

晓婷爱说的一句话:

"...Sometimes it's the little things that matter most..."

我也有同感。

只要你用心去体会,最美的事,往往是生活里的看似最微不足道,最简单的每一个点滴。

Friday, November 23, 2007

照片.回忆

深夜里,我正望着那熟悉的照片,熟悉的面孔。记忆仍犹新,却在每当忆起你已离我远去时,刹那间,你的脸变得很陌生,很遥远。我措手不及,心头一寒,悲伤起来。

Friday, November 16, 2007

Looking back

As I look back, two years have passed since I first came to Curtin Sarawak.

It was on the 23rd February 2006 when I landed in Miri, a resort-city which I was gonna spend my next two years, studying in Curtin Australia's offshore campus. I was reluctant though, when I first made my decision to further my studies here. I'm a Kuching boy, hoping to go to bigger cities or metroplitan for studies, but eventually I ended up in a just-turn city with less than half of Kuching's population, in this place they call Miri.

Nevertheless, 2006 was one of the best years in my life.

I was 18 back then. Young and energetic. On the 13th March 2007, the results of SPM was released. I secured straight A1's in the exam. I was crowned as one of the top students. I had a result that arguably every student would envy of. Not boasting, but I have all straight A's in all 3 of my public exams since primary.

I had a beautiful resume. I was the chairpersons of clubs in secondary, and now with my result, things were almost perfect for me. The moments when I got to know the result were ecstatic, even as I reflect back now.

This wasn't the only best thing that I experienced that year.

2006 was the year that I started my first relationship. The first time that I confessed to the girl I liked, and it worked out. Being the first for both of us, it was all sweet and nice, albeit it's a long distance relationship.

I was even offered a scholarship for medicine to Czech in Europe by the government. It was like a dream for everyone to have a government scholarship for overseas studies. Owing to the fact that the course is not what I favour, I turned it down. It was a long story to tell though about this.

It was also the year that I turned into a serious christian. I dare not to say I'm a very devoted one, but my faith has given me the meaning of life in Christ.

I was on top of the world then. Those few months taste better than the sweetest chocolate on earth. I was in ecstasy. I was completely overwhelmed with joy. Those were the happiest times I experienced since a long while.

Or perhaps it weren't.

Being offered the scholarship for a course which wasn't actually my choice, I turned it down. But I was kinda frustrated though when I see some less qualified students being offered to prestigious places like France or Japan. Heck, never mind about that. I'm contented with Czech, but it wasn't my choice. I tried applying other scholarships. In which I receive no feedback from them. Be it Petronas or Sime Darby or any other. No feedback. In fact I see many more very-much-less-qualified students who got the offer. I'm not talking about racism here. Those that I know, many of them are Chinese like me too. Some even come from much well-to-do family than mine. Running family business and all that while my dad's only a government servant.

Year 2007 came, and I soon found myself deep down in the valley.

I'm only 19, supposedly still young and energetic as how I was in 18, yet I found myself so helpless in many aspects of life.

Feeling the dejection from the turn-down of scholarships, I felt that there ain't really much meaning of studying anymore. Call me kiasu, but honestly I studied hard all these while cos I was hoping for overseas scholarship that can ease my parents' burden. More people who did much poorer in studies and yet get better offers from me. So what's the point?

My academic started to slump. My average dropped from 80 above to 60. Plus, I don't enjoy the course that I'm in at all. I started to care less. And things went wrong. I wanted to gain back my performance as how I was, yet I failed to do so. I got selected for interview by Shell scholarship, and yet I was turned down, again. This time I guess it's purely because my result wasn't good enough for them.

My long distance relationship shattered, which in the end led to our separation. Just when I really did try to appreciate more and try to gain her back, she's gone. She's gone.

Heck I even failed my driving test ridiculously.

My self-esteem was at its lowest. I doubt myself. I scolded myself. I blamed myself why am I so. I wanted to change. But I just don't get the strength. I was wrong in so many things. In terms of my mentality. For my studies or for my relationship.

I'm down.

Year 2007, is the worst year in my life. At least thus far, it is.

I was wrong before. But I realise my wrongs. I was blind, but now I see.

Next year I'll be 20, another milestone of my life.

Forgetting the past, be it successes or failures, I really crave for a change in me.

I'm looking forward for your come back, Kenneth.

Hope to see you at the top again.


Monday, November 12, 2007

Crap of An Exam Week

On an exam week when you don't get to sleep more than 5 hours a day, you become a desperado. Not desperate for man, nor for woman, but for your bed. I mean, what can be more comfortable than lying on the warm, cosy bed not doing anything?

And my lousy bed in Miri, which actually looks like this:



Suddenly it turned into something like this.


So tempting. So inviting. Well, I'm so desperate for a good sleep.

We fantasize when we're too desperate for something. You don't care much anymore. It's like when you're thirsty, a glass of plain water will taste like heaven for you. It's just a game in your mind that makes you fantasize.

Just like when you're desperate for a girl, you tend to mistaken this:

as our stunning Scarlett:


Or, Brad Pitt:


As our humble Kenneth:



But at least this is understandable. Cos there isn't much difference between the two. Don't you agree?